Helen Chang
I N S O M N I A
The Epitome of Waiting
Those dreadful nights in which you close your eyes, restfully lying in the comfort of your bed, only to find your hyperactive brain entering its own world without regards to your need for sleep. Your body grows desperate to reach that REM sleep where it could finally dissociate from this abominable rouge brain and cease to obey all incoming commands. It wants to be autonomous, be motionless, be rested. The longing turns seconds into minutes, and the relativity of time has never been so conspicuous.
“Shhhhh,” the body says to the brain.
But, of course, the egocentric brain eludes all sleep-related desires as it continues to dance away in its wonderland, deserting the body to its own aggravation. So, the body waits. It waits as its breathing becomes sighs, as its muscles crawl with a numbing tingle, and as its heat transforms the inside of the blanket into a disagreeable sauna.
Meanwhile, in the brain, it untimely ponders the identity of its host, the meaning of life, the vastness of the universe, and that one thing it forgot to put on the to-do list earlier in the day. Where is this lucidity and efficiency in the day time, Brain?
So the waiting continues, slowly and seemingly indefinitely as the self-perpetuating anxiety disseminates through all the neural pathways. Then, in a snippet of a moment, through an abrupt disengagement of time and context, the unconsciousness pulls the shades over the consciousness, suppressing the wonderland into the dreams, and containing the dreadfulness in a cage. But all is not lost: for the next night, they will be released all over again.
Insomnia, 2020. Video.
"https://youtu.be/qFvuo649bTU"
So you think you can relax? Try again.
L ———- I —— N —————E———-S
Repetition of
Lines Lines Lines Lines
Lines Lines Lines Lines
Lines Lines Lines Lines
Lines Lines Lines Lines
Spacetime Continuum, 2019. Yarn, digital print.
We travel down points in time
of the space-time continuum,
but what actually passes?
Our consciousness does not linger, but time does.
If we warp time,
do we meet ourselves in the past? in the future? in the present?
Reality is a construction of our mind,
so where does the physical nature of time exist?
………………..A Line is tiny dots extremely close to each other
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- brain © sciencemag.org
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